Is it possible to miss more than one person at a time? Is it possible … to long for more than one person, at the same time?

Yet again was lost in the past. The evenings of conversations and care. The kind that makes you feel special, loved … O! it’s a feeling … long time back. I’m longing for that voice, and the placating effect of it. Will I ever forget the minute details of that attraction? And then 9th august and 3rd November in itself. The fragrance … and taste of these evenings on my lips. O! Will this memory always extend from beauty to regret? From the purest of feelings, to a sinful degree of lust? Will my most treasured memory always conclude in disgust? I wish there were answers … yes, answers to questions no one knows. It was never love. When will I stop fooling myself?

Talking about longing, it was an evening tinged with fleeting comfort from Vm. Every conversation with him begins looking for something, and concludes with tears. Have I changed, or have you changed Vm? Is it that I now long for certain individuality, and self esteem, I didn’t know of earlier ? Wishes remain wishes and change, undeniable.

The smell mu leaves behind with a passing glance or without, drives me crazy. And I crave for some attention from him, maybe a slight touch, a wink, a pinch, or a compliment. You’ve moved on Mu, to some other girl, someone more attractive I’m sure, and someone … less protected by a fierce set of friends.
* On a lighter note, having been in a relationship with Mu, Sh put up a dog on her pin up board, as she says, symbolizing “no more dogs welcome”. To let him know, she put up a similar one on mine, “stay off her” she means. *
Do I want him to … is the question.

Having said this, maybe you are right Vm. I am not in a position to talk about lovers. And the possibility of lovers being friends once they attain the title of ex-lovers.

Hmm… been there not done that.

And yes, I might as well add, I know what it is to love, and atleast I have that to give, in all honesty. What I don’t know is the feeling of being loved. And that … is because I’ve met guys who don’t have love to give. All they have is big mouths and a lot of lust.

Which makes me wonder what is love, and if at all it exists ?