It's over ... i guess.


No, it's over. Again.

Once more, i face the dead end, yes, the end before the turn.
The decision before the realisation, again. As i lose one more person in my life, i'll face the fact. i'm not ready to love, yet.

With all the mess thats happening in office, i'll add another setback.

Being alone is killing me. And it's brought back my weakness, my classic milds.
It's been a horrible day. And a terrible evening. This time a teary one. A time of feeling al alone. Of having no ne beside me. No family, no friends. And no phone calls. Seems like the attention for me is wearing off. In a way i am gad Nil. I guess i was getting too dependent on you. And i know it wouldn't last. I dont deserve you, and you don't deserve me. It's time we stopped this before i lose a great friend in you.

Talking about friends, I seem to have lost one in Sr. Not that i cared very much about her. It's just that she seems to have stopped talking to me because of a guy. Believing what he told her about me. And that, is crazy ! It also makes things difficult for Kr. and Mal. Especially when you are leaving Mal. I ll miss you terribly. My first friend i office, and by far my best one here. It's gonna be lonely without you Mal. I wish you werent going. Irrespective of all the politcs you played, and the number of people you got into trouble. O Mal... i'll so miss you. Aur kya kahoon ...

It's a sad evening today ...

Innocence lost, maturity not gained.
I wonder where I lie ...

I don't belong.