It's been long. Quite.

Busy weekend. Work, partying. Drinks n smoke. Late nights. My first late night in bombay actually. Starnge. It took me 6 months to come home past 1:30 in bombay, lesser in bangalore.

Being high on saturday was good. High, not drunk. Apologised, and meant it, sincerely.
It was quite a 'guy' day really. Nil called up, from ludhiana. Surprise :)
Heard about me, from Kr, what Mu told Sh. Extremely disgusted.
Was made out to be quite a slut. I'm not blaming no one. I behaved like one.
If I don't think about what he talks about me, I can still feel the pull towards him. Thankfully, I do think about what he's been speaking. And all the time he winks at me, and stares till I blush.
I can be strong now, I guess. And ignore him.

Woke up quite exhausted on sunday. And monday was was even worse. Was so terribly exhausted after very long.
Maybe it was the travelling from powai to juhu, then the day at juhu itself, and then juhu to malad, and malad to dadar. All with tons of weight and an empty house ahead. After ages, cried my self to sleep, exhausted sleep.

I have no idea where it's going with Nil. He's back tomorrow from delhi. Can't wait :) and yet wish to delay it every moment.

Ad, you were right. I'm not ready to love yet. All I've experienced is lust. And attraction. And infatuation.

Sometimes, sometimes I wish I wasn't here, or there. Sometimes, I wish I was nowhere.