Been very on and off.
Today I realized why. 45 days reduced to 20 ?
I don’t know which is worse
…

Life has been a mess. Pretty much screwed up at office. Mu seems hell bent on ruining my reputation. And I seem determined to prove him right. It’s getting nasty. I want to alienate myself from me.

Still don’t know what to feel for Nil, coz I cant figure out if what I am feeling is of my own accord, or out of being told again and again.

Watched my first cd of porn yesterday.
Quite an interesting experience ! Unfortunately for me, it was soft porn; and couldn’t enlighten me as much as I expected it to. *wink*

Too much idle time in the factory yesterday. Spent most of it reliving 3rd November.

Everyday is like a prolonged moment. Everyday is the same. Nothing to look forward to, waiting to skip the day.

“kho naa jaaye ye … tare zameen par”