3 days. And I missed being here. Its been quite an eventful 3 days with my several emotional highs and lows.

Friday began with a hectic looking day in office. I was borrowed for mundane work to be completed by another department. I didn’t mind really. Partly because such things just don’t affect my ego and partly, because it was Mu’s work. The day was spent in mild irritation and hurriedness. The whole troublesome factor was their team boss. Who kept hovering over us. But then, I thoroughly enjoyed making him run around. Extremely panicky as he is, I kept him on his toes updating him on what all was missing. **evil grin**

So the day passed by in this and that, mood offs and grumbles, jokes, anger and quite a lot of bitching ;)

After quite some contemplation on my mood swings, I decided I was safe to go to my cousins place. It was a rather unusual evening spent as a listener to office problems on the phone. And a somewhat silent noise within. And a desire to talk to no one in particular, actually no one at all.

Chalo, phir subah uthey kuch waise hi bechaini se.
Was working on a Saturday that was off. But again, im not complaining. I’m happy as long as I’m busy. It was a great welcome for me at the factory. Going there after close to 2 and half months ! Sh anna with his always welcoming smile and bottle of maaza, saying how he missed getting maaza for me on those hot afternoons when I’d come exhausted to the factory with 30 odd samples ! all the masters and even the kaarigar who I harassed to finish my button holes during sampling :) the lady who used to do the marking for my buttons, smiling at me. and blushing and asking me for the skirt I promised her if she’d wear it for me :) (knowing she’s the salwar kameez clad- dupatta pinned – not talking to the males – girl.!) An master calling me to the other gala because one of the girls there was asking for me, wondering if I’d left because “aap ko itne dino se nahin dekha, humme laga aapne chhod diya !”
Amid all the politics and tension and irritation this was a mild relief for me :)

But by evening, I just don’t know what happened. I was completely off. That’s it. I mean silent. I mean… off.
The highlight of the evening was my trip to the chemist. A colleague, rather a dear brother in office was getting married on 25th. And we decided to be helpful enough to give him ‘condoms’. It was easy really. As easy as buying sanitary napkins actually. When you know the brand and the size of the pack you want to buy. As easy as going upto the guy behind the counter and saying “I want a pack of kamasutra”. It gives some kind of a kick. To be able to do this without hesitation, without feeling yuck or feeling embarrassed.
The rest of the evening passed of as morose as it started. *sigh*
I hate PMS :’(

Sunday was relatively better. Was too caught up in getting ready for Ut’s wedding. And co-ordinating with the rest of the gang to meet up at dadar station ! and trust me, that is a task in itself. And we had to go to kalian. So now, we were already late, and missed the 10:36 fast because of wrong indicators (it said 12car wen it was 9, grrr). So when thenext train arrived we packed ourselves in irrespective of it being a general compartment. Now, you must understand, general means gents compartment. So we squeezed in, bearing the gazes but avoiding their hands and dicks. Kalyan ! its like a mini village !! the wedding was good. Im so glad I went, coz it was my dear brother uttsy :)
What bothered me most was the return journey, which again was in the general compartment. And this time it was horrible. Men, pressing and staring. The worst was when we were getting down. About 30 people getting down at dadar, and among all these men us 3 girls. Felt up and shaken.

Accompanied roomie N to phoenix to shop for her boyfriends birthday. Felt slightly lonely then. Wish …

Been thinking of him. And silently shedding tears.

Its been 23 days since I quit. And I intend to keep it up !

That’s it from me. back to office today and back to helping the boss who cant move his finger forget his ass.

My boils back. And hurting.

Im getting extremely grumpy.
*sigh*